Monday, October 15, 2007
SRIRITUAL WARFARE part 2 ~zhinian
lol. this week's worse than the last. but thank God i'm still alive. haha. and i was really really happy to see all youy guys in the cell group last week! heh. the devil's drillin a hole in my head. things are getting unbearably unpleasant. and probably if i'm lucky, can publish a thriller of my persecution stories. haha. should be quite interestng.ok, here it is. last week i went to cell group and service, after missing it altogether for one week. however, when i came back, my mum was very upset. scarcasm first, followed by scoldings.
i would have to move out of the house if i go service this week. and she is serious. together with my bro. my bro is currently considering if he should go service this week.
things got so bad till i have churned out a EMERGENCY LEAVE-THE-HOUSE pasking list. gonna pack probably tonight, just in case she decides to throw me out of the house one fine day.
her perception of christians worsen, cuz we went out in spite of ber bojecting.
she went schozophrenic that night. sharted chanting the buddism prayers they whole night for probably one to two hours, and prayer walk around the house, paying particular attention to my room. it's crazy. she walk around chanting chanting, then came into my room and chant exceptionally luod and i was sleeping already. and she cried i think.
she is capapble of coming to me with a knife, so i dared not sleep. after her chanting chanting for dunno how many hours, she started banging on stuff. it was thundering. and it was almost 1am. goodness knows whst she's doing. it was very very loud(every blow was like filled with hatred or something). after that, she started listening to radio late in the night. ok, there's no problem if she does this everyday. but she doesn't. arrghh..
the next morning, she behaved normally. but i realise she became over-paranoid about me and my bro, especially when we are going to grandpa's house together, she thought we were going church. it's crazy.
now i'm thinking of moving out, cuz she made it very clear that if i ever go again, i can pack my luggage and don't come back. sigh.
ahh.. it's not easy to find time to talk to my friends still, everyone's so busy with project work and tutorials and if they can promote. zzz...
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the happier stuff. haha i realise i''m using this blog space more often tahn not! and this becomes a forum where everyone has their views expressed here. and it's experiencial. believe it or not, this is somewhat the first time in my life that i can know the whole cell group at equal depth, what's going on in life and stuff.
thanks wendy n charles, for reading my long long entries all the time.
to ade and jme,have fun in uni (and having black legs =))
to charles, have fun in camp! i know u're doing very well in guards, do better yea?=)
to hong xiu, thanks for learning to be a little more independent. god bkess ya =)
to elicia, thanks for smiling at me alll the time!! =) your cmile birghtens up anyone's day!
to val, thanks for sharing your life on the blog even though you're having exams real soon. all the best!!
thanks joseph, for all your wonderful stories and interesting things to share, and ur car ride n BK. lolx.
thanks wendy, for always encouraging me when everything's going wrong.
thanks yong quan, for your nice music with cool guitar skills. and that card game we had before the bbq. lols.
and zoe, thanks for being there for me...
to the rest (if i really did miss out any), hope to know youy more each day. lols.
nianz
i posted this at 11:48 AM
and i have received 3 comments.
wah zhinian, ur indeed going thru alot...
Well like wat pastor said.. all circumstances we face will 1 day pass away!! hold on to ur faith!
maybe 1 day when ur mum has cooled down or something, u can go talk to her about ur beliefs and stuff, and hear wat she wants to say ;>
We'll pray for u.. but if u really no house haha its ok la.. i got plenty of em.. hahahaa jkjk listen to ur mum!
Joseph
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October 15, 2007 at 3:49 PM
wah. i'm really shocked to read what you are going through right now. yups! circumstances are just part and parcel of life and it'll pass away(: thanks for your encouragement girl. you take care too ya.
praying for you,
val
By , at
October 15, 2007 at 7:37 PM
The battle is not against flesh and blood, but against principalities and powers... Keep praying for yr breakthrough Nian! I believe Jesus together with you for it too!
U can come look for me if u ever need a place to stay too. =)
Take heart my sis...
