Sunday, March 16, 2008
Come away with me
goshhh u wun believe how long it took me to even start blogging becos blogger was having problems and it took forever for the page to load. >.<the time now is 3.54am AHHHHHHHHH
haha but i can sleep in tmr so who cares. better start blogging before i lose the will to blog. Out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks. haha when there is input, there must be output...
Today we sang a worship song in service that can more or less sum up this post.
I feel you tugging at me
A voice that whispers inside of me
Come away Come away
With me.
I think many of you would know that my saturdays are set aside for church and cellgroup...
Buttt last night weini asked if i was interested to work on sat nite for an event at the Singapore Art Museum, 8pm to 1am...haha and the pay was very tempting and and and I really wanted to work >.<
Anyway, by accepting the job...kinda meant that I was going to skip class and choose either i go late for service and leave early or I could go for sunday's svc instead. (haha okae confession to make.... i was seruisly considering going for sun's svc out of convenience.)
Half of me kinda knew I wasnt going to get the job... the other half was just hoping beyond hope that I would get it. And you know that kind of waiting for a reply makes me really restless, increases my heartbeat and makes it very hard for me to study for my test.
Well, I din get it >.< (they said i looked too young!!) I must say I was really disappointed initially... was quite turned off and too sianed to stay on in class... all I wanted to do was to go strait to expo for service. Its the same kind of feeling of wanting to run back home to your mummy and daddy as a little child when you were bullied at school.
But during service, as I begin to sing this song, the presence of God came. Everything that Pst Phil Pringle said today seemed to be just for me. It was definitely worth more than the hundred bucks I could have earned tonight. and it dawned upon me that hey, on Saturday 530pm, I have an appointment with God! Thank God for shutting certain doors in my life to prevent me from making the wrong decisions. Its just like when I was younger, my dad did not allow me to do certain things because he wanted to protect me, he wanted the best for me.
I must admit that if it was march 2007, I probably would have given a definite no to working on saturday night because it was a time I set aside for the church, cellgroup and fellowship...and especially since at that point in time, e348 was just formed and we were all in this new found friendship. Somehow things were different then because we were all trying and putting in so much effort to bond and make this new cellgroup work. Somehow I could feel that there was this passion and fire then in most of us to want to commit to this cellgroup and give it our best. All our prayer requests were directed to deeper relationships within the cg because we were convinced that this was the key to a successful cellgroup. But yet, over the past few months, there are times when I look left and right and wonder if I am fighting this battle alone. Or is everyone else too busy fighting their own personal battles. Looking back on our after service fellowship for the past few weeks, I kind of wonder if it is something everybody wants to get it done and over with so that they can carry on with their plans after that? Has our fellowship sessions come to a place where it makes no difference whether we joined or not, is it still something we look forward to? Will the day come when after service and debrief, everyone just goes off to do their own things cos its a saturday night. Lets not even go into the topic of meeting up during the week.
hahaa okae mayb i'm being over sensitive but its just a thought. I dun even know how I got to this point. its 6am now! and i cant think of a nice ending for this post but I still love this cellgroup ALOT and I want to.
<3
jme
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Thanks for being transparent Jamie dear. :) And thanks for the entry! I can really identify with it!
I've always made it a priority to fellowship with my spiritual family on Sat nights after service... I remembered Justin saying our spiritual family is closer than our natural family. Becos well, we're all spiritual beings. I admit I do get a little disheartened sometimes if people "disappear" after service and feel like "disappearing" myself sometimes too. But of course if you really really have to go, you have to lah but that's not my issue here so dun get me wrong. =)
The bible says that the world will know the God we serve by the strong love that we have for each other. To put it bluntly, no fellowship, spending quality time together leads to no strong relationships and no strong love between us which results in no (or minimal) salvation of the lost.
And I have to say one huge burden I have since thensuddenlyE348 is that I have a non-existent relationship with some of the people in the CG ( i think you know who you are). And I believe that isn't what God wants.So pls, press into my life like I am trying to press into yours. The believers in the new testament MET DAILY. We're meeting mostly just once a week sometimes so let's make good use of it yeah? =)
Here for E348,
Wendy
